HAPPY DOCUMENT (character monologue)

Maybe just because I've been reading books!
that make me feel fantastically ecstatic!
Maybe because I've been clamping
my pen in hand, far to close then perhaps a lady should 
that I am very... very... very... happy.
That my hands sweat! like they do
Clammy! like never before
Clammy like I've always wanted to have
Happened! Happening!
Oh, suddenly I'm in great fondness
of my handwriting your signature!
the way it curves.. angles (angel) spills
dare I even say... dances?
There. I said it!
Give it a reason of... biological rationale 
if you must, but reason?! logic?! 
do we really need them? now? 
can't we just stuff them in our pockets, 
maybe save it for later 
(like tissues and silvered coins) 
or better yet! Give it to the scientists to dissect 
in a big blue box, with a big red bow 
and as always with love
My mind races with pet names
can I call you cookie? baby?
would you find me sarcastic, oh my precious buttercup 
my honey bunny, bunny honey
my pumpkin, cupcake, loverboy, apple of my eye, my heart a thump, a thump 
Do your ears work like mine?
is my language one you do not understand?
I wonder what my eyes look like
in this frenzied state of inspiration!
Are they the same when I look at you?
Intuition! Indecision! Oh Indiana! 
In the end, like a child! Silly! Good! You are happy!
and happy is the soul of I !