"IGNORANCE IS PISS" (character monologue) 

I do not speak for any community
I am an individual. I am human
I only speak for myself.  

but I feel
It's time I write this- this that burns within me
because I am tired of ignorance 
spitting from lips
from these 
ameri-cans

I've tried to remain 
calm
for I know responding with anger
will only result in anger
they will only see "ANGER!!!!"
all the while - I have anger -- 
gurgling and burning within- like a fire that can not expressed
repressed for they will only see my anger - as an attack - as an attempt
and thus miss the point I try to make 
while breathing and grinning some attempt of a neutral smile.
WHY?!?! Because there are little fun in hate. 

i've tried to intellectualize with them
to analyize the reasoning behind the words - the threats--- these actions
the fear behind their anger
the anger behind their fear
the motivation behind this hatred
but they just spew more ignorance- like vomit
as if I was a lesser being?

You and I are human beings
so what gives you the right to treat me as any less?

Yes! I have had it up to here
this bullshit!
These people 
who don't have a religious bone in their body
but yet say "I think homosexuality is wrong because my bible tells me so"

I've had it up to here
with religions that spout out "love thy neighbor" and the golden rule
and yet turn around and promote hatred and stereotypes
these are men - they are not pedophiles
and these women- they aren't confused 
and they don't need a "good man" to set them straight!

I've had it up to here
with people saying how same sex couples have no right for complaint
after all they have "the right to marry a heterosexual just like the rest of us"

Oh but worse my friends 
are the souls who say 
"don't get me wrong i'm not homophobic" 
"BUT I beleive gays should be dragged out into the street and shot"
or 
"don't get me wrong-- I have gays friends
BUT I beleive it's unnatural and the product of sick thought"

how many times will someone say the word fag
and no one will speak up-- as if "fag" was not deragatory
all the while denying the existence of their ignorance

after all, it's not them... 
it's society 
"Society isn't ready for homosexuality"

The same society that wasn't ready for woman to work-- to vote
the same society that wasn't ready for the finale of slavery
the same society that still isn't ready to admit the truth of their history

Knowing this --- and this existence of ignorance
that struts about loud and unashamed in this land
Shall I walk down the streets
all the while taking the risk of being beat down 
with a bat or ignorant remark
simply because I love and lust after the soul and body and mind of a human- a woman
simply because he loves and lusts after the soul and body and mind of a man

by those that feels it's unnatural to love someone of the same sex
but feels it's perfectly normal to beat someone to death
blood stained baseball bats- sidewalk cement- permanent stain
who feel it's normal to hate
simply because of a difference
of preference
of sexuality.
  
I hear them explain this to me... how this ignorance is okay
after all it's not the ignorance of race
I am really all to blame-- it's my fault that I am this way
It's my fault that I am gay
what an ignorant thing to say 
you can't even own up to your ignorance
to busy justifying your hate 
to realize it's all the same!